music: alphabeat- 10, 000 nights
I’m really not feeling like going to work today. I seriously hate my new schedule, and the majority of my classes. the kids are either terribly behaved or frusteratingly unable to do any of the lessons i plan for them. Yesterday I had the absolute worst class I’ve ever taught. I almost burst into tears in the middle of it. the kid would not do a thing. I could not get him to do any of the lesson, i spent 45 minutes chasing him around the room and trying to get him to do SOMETHING. it was terrible.
I know that i just need to get used to this schedule and they need to get used to me, and it will get better, but right now, it’s just so draining. I go to bed at like 11:00 now, because i dont even have the energy to keep my eyes open to watch more than one episode of grey’s anatomy. I’m starting to wonder if extending that extra month was a good idea. I mean, it is only a month, and another month’s pay will be nice, but seriously, if the classes stay like this, and i had the chance to leave a month early…. I’m going to be pretty pissed. on top of it, as though i dont have enough stress, i keep getting extra random private lessons thrown into my schedule and trials and…. ugh. i just feel like my head is going to explode.
on top of it, it’s been raining all week, which doesn’t help with a grumpy mood or stress.
lukily vacation time is soon, which i’m very excited for. unfortunately i just found out jarek is coming to japan the DAY before i leave for okinawa, and then goes back to canada the day AFTER i come back, except i have a wedding that day. so i’ll be lucky if i get to see him for a couple hours in tokyo the day he arrives, and then i must head back to nagoya that evening to catch my flight to okinawa from there in the morning. it broke my heart when i found that out. that he will be in japan for a whole week, and i’ll be lucky to see him for a few hours.
I cant even bring myself to be in the mood to go out and have fun this weekend. I’m trying to convince everyone to come hang out with me in my apartment to watch movies and drink wine because I don’t have the energy or stamina to go out and party on the town. we’ll see how successful that is.
