music: ryan adams- avalanche
Im feeling slightly melancholic this morning. nothing serious, and its not about being lonely or homesick or any of those things…. its about a boy. stupid, i know. i thought in coming to japan i was escaping all that, finding myself, removing myself from the petty boy/girl drama that i was constantly surrounded by back home. but it seems as though i’ve brought some ghosts along with me. and its a different sort of feeling. at home you were just sort of tossed in the middle of a bunch of different situations and left to scramble out or grasp a hold of whatever seemed fitting at the moment.
here… it feels more like a haunting.
