wherever you go, wherever you land November 19, 2007

music: anybody wanna take me home- ryan adams

I always feel like a million dollars after hanging out with japanese friends, i wonder why that is. they are always just sooo excited to be with you and so excited that you want to associate with them, its adorable and flattering and it makes them even cuter than they already are. Ayami came and picked me up and we went to the restaurant where her boss at the salon met up with us because she really wanted to meet me and practise her english.  we had yaki niku and they both had their little english dictionaries that they had to look in every time they said a sentence, i didnt mind at all, they were soo sweet and adorable. We had such a good time. Ayami’s boss, nozomi was so excited to be my friend, she asked me if i would go out for lunch with her again and i obviously said yes! she is also going to come to my apartment next monday to cook me dinner! TACO YAKI AT THAT!!! (taco yaki is this deeeelicious japanese dish, of these little fried balls with octopus in them, and this delicious sauce and mayonaise, and mmmmmm, anyone in or who has been in japan knows taco yaki and all its deliciousness) so, that is totally awesome, and she has a friend who just returned to japan from australia and speaks very good english and she wants me to meet her, so we are all going to go out. YAY to new japanese friends!

Ive had this overwhelming sense of pride lately, like i am just so proud of myself for doing what im doing. im proud that i stuck it out through the rough patch at the beginning because it was so worth it for what im feeling now. like i feel like i can do anything, go anywhere. not many people could do this, and im doing it, im living it. This is an amazing thing im experiencing and it only keeps getting better and better. I was proud of myself when i got into university, i was proud of myself when i graduated university, i was proud of myself when i got this job and got on that plane, but nothing can ammount to how proud of myself i feel right now for living this, doing this.

Every so often i experience these moments where i get goosebumps and have to pinch myself to see if im really awake. yesterday i was riding my bike to the mall, and the leaves were falling around me like snowflakes and it was absolutely beautiful, i was listening to frou frou-let go on my ipod, and i felt like i could fly, and honestly, the way things are going, i bet you, any day now, i’ll be able to.