October 23 2007 October 23, 2007

music: Ryan Adams- please do not let me go

            Wow, two more days and I will have been in japan for two months. it simultaneously feels like its gone by so fast, the weeks fly, and like ive already been here for years and years. my life back in stoney creek feels like lifetimes ago. It’s a very strange feeling. I feel a little nostalgic this morning, not so much sad or depressed, just homesick perhaps.

            This weekend was…. interesting. On Saturday mike and I went out for dinner, although I planned on skipping out on it, by the end of the day I really just wanted to go out to eat. so we went to a cheap restaurant then went to the foreigner bar to see if we could make friends. ended up talking to this guy who has been in japan for 16 years. he was very interesting. he told me his life story, which sounded like a movie, and im not sure whether I believe everything he said or not, but either way, he was entertaining. him and mike left and I stuck around for a little. this guy next to me started talking to me, he was Japanese but had lived in LA for two years. This guy, was, well, he looks like he belongs in the fast and the furious or something. brush cut, really buff, like totally UFC kickboxing champion sort of look. not my type. at all. not in the very least. but he was friendly, spoke good English, so we talked for a bit, I thought, hey a cool friend. down. he asked me for lunch the following day, Sunday, I agreed, thinking lunch, friendly, cool. gave him my number and he said hed pick me up in front of CIBICO at noon the next day. we met up and had lunch, it was nice, but he was already making all these plans to take me to Hokaido for weekend getaways, and wine tasting the next night, I smiled and agreed, while at the same time thinking “….uh oh” after lunch I was going to meet kanika in Nagoya, he said he would drive me, I agreed as he insisted. so he drove me there then told me to call him that night when I got back and we would hang out. I got out of the car and met kanika and told her about my situation. She laughed at me and just said to hang out with him but keep making it clear that we are FRIENDS. that night after kanika left, I went to see a movie in Nagoya by myself ( I love doing that) anyways, he called three times while I was in the movie (ringer off), had I not told him I would call him? by the time I got home, he had called me 5 times. decided that was a bit much and did not call him back. The next day I woke up early and met up with kanika and her manager in Nagoya, we went to go see hairspray, so cute. anyways. he called me four times yesterday, again didn’t answer. Whereas I was cool with being friends before, now its just kind of creepy. Kanika says I should answer and at least let him know that im safe (he may just be worried) and that im just super busy and tell him I will call him around the end of the week, but alas, I hate confrontation and would just rather ignore the calls until he goes away. basically I can never go back to that foreigner bar again, but whatever. last thing I need is a big fast and the furious Japanese stalker. creeeeeepy.I was lonely before, thinking I could meet a boy here, but now I don’t think I even care. id much rather just hang out with kanika, shop, travel. ….and I keep thinking about a certain person, a boy, from my past. I think I might be in love with him.. oh god. I don’t want to go to work now either. my baby class stresses me out. this week better fly by.