music: the shins- AustraliaIve gotten really good at waking up early, before my alarm clock goes off, and actually wanting to get up then. like still having another half hour to sleep, but really just wanting to get up and start my day then. So now im just making my breakfast, a hard boiled egg and miso soup, with a couple glasses of cold coffee. they drink cold coffee here in the summer, the way we drink hot coffee all the time. its pretty difficult to find hot coffee in the summer here. only at places like starbucks etc. they sell cold coffee in their vending machines along with their coca cola and bottled wated. I buy cartons of cold black coffee, like milk from the convenience stores and vending machines. at first I was really weirded out by it. but now that my coffee pot is broken its my only substitute. I had a dream about neil boshart last night. out of all people. I haven’t thought about that guy in years. that’s so weird. theres something about being alone and far away that makes you think about everyone who has ever passed through your life, and miss them. its like a sad desperation. its kind of grey and rainy this morning, but I like it. I don’t know why. usually the rainy days make me sad, but this morning is different. Sitting on my computer, listening to the shins, making my breakfast, drinking a coffee, the dim lighting of my apartment, it almost feels like a home. Yesterday was Mike’s birthday. I bought him a pastry from the convenience store and when I coundnt find birthday candles, I put a paper birthday candle from some of my school props in it, and made him a card from stickers and construction paper. I almost didn’t do any thing out of laziness, but then I thought about that time adam got me cupcakes from that store in westdale, so I knew it would be a nice gesture and totally appreciated. tonight a bunch of our staff is going out for mikes birthday, dinner and such. im actually really looking forward to it. im trying to get closer to the Japanese staff. they seem to kind of keep their distance from us, but I think im starting to break through that. I mean, seriously, how can you not want to be friends with me? my manager and I get along really well. we talk for like half an hour every morning. I really enjoy it. shes so sweet. I went for a run again last night. it felt so good. I can run a lot easier here than at home. maybe it’s the air, maybe its just the shape im in? who knows. either way Im loving it. then I came home, made some dinner, chicken and bean sprouts, watched some sex and the city and started studying Japanese. that’s right. I figured its time. theres no way I can go home knowing the same sentences I came here knowing, hello and thank you. so its begun. im in this stage of really wanting to better myself. I think that’s a good thing.alright, time to eat my breakfast and get started on my day. Saturdays are my most intense days. I have 8 classes today, and only one hour break when I get to eat my lunch. at least they go by quickly. except my most dreaded class is today. the devil children. not looking forward to it. ugh.
